By the Creator of Noor Guidance Sanctuary

I did not create Noor Guidance Sanctuary from theory.
I created it from life, from pain, from awakening, and from a turning point I could never have prepared for.

For many years, I thought I was doing what every parent does: doing my best while carrying the weight of daily responsibilities, cultural expectations, and the invisible baggage passed down through generations. I became a mother at 18. My husband was 21. We were still children ourselves, with no guidance on how to raise emotionally healthy children. We fed our babies, clothed them, and protected them, but no one ever taught us how to nurture their inner worlds or our own.

I didn’t realize how deep this gap was until last year, when my 17-year-old son experienced psychosis and paranoia. It was the lowest moment of his life and mine.

His final year of college had been a quiet collapse:
a course he didn’t enjoy, teachers who dismissed him, friendships that weren’t true, the influence of substances, a breakup, and a deep loneliness he didn’t know how to express. He was slipping into darkness, and although I sensed something was wrong, life pulled me in every direction. A wedding to prepare for, work, responsibilities, and like many parents, I brushed little signs under the carpet, trusting they would settle on their own.

Until they didn’t.

His breaking point came after a betrayal by someone he trusted. When he shattered, I shattered with him. It forced me to face the truth: not just about him, but about myself, about parenting, about generational wounds, and about how much harm we carry unknowingly.

My son was not the only young person in our extended family struggling.
There are others—with substance issues, psychosis, or bipolar—each one silently carrying generations of unprocessed pain. I refused to let my son become another name on that list.

Something awakened in me.

I needed to understand the mind.
I needed to understand trauma.
I needed to understand myself.

I read every book I could find.
I spoke to therapists.
I listened to podcasts.
I studied Carl Jung.
I learned about shadow work.
I took a counseling course.
I stayed awake night after night, going into the places inside me I had been avoiding for years.

Slowly, I began to understand:
We cannot parent our children with wounds we haven’t healed.

The behaviours I saw in my older children…
the defensiveness…
the reactions…
the emotional distance…

It wasn’t their fault, and it wasn’t mine.
It was inherited pain.
It was unconscious parenting.
It was generational silence.
It was survival, not awareness.

By the time I was raising my younger children, something inside me had shifted. I realized that to raise mentally healthy children, I needed to become a mentally healthy parent. That became my mission, my obsession, and eventually my transformation.

Through shadow work, self-inquiry, therapy, learning, and deep reflection, I reached a clarity I never imagined. I began to see my life, my children, and my story from a bird’s-eye view. I understood the roots of my behaviors, fears, insecurities, shame, and pain and, most importantly, how they shaped the way I parented.

Healing changed me.
And because it changed me, it changed my home.

Now I dedicate this sanctuary, Noor Guidance Sanctuary, to parents who are ready to look within, to find the light that has always lived inside them, and to break the cycles that once felt inevitable.

Whether your child is a toddler, a teenager, or a grown adult…
It is never too late.
Awareness can begin at any age.
Healing is always possible.
Connection can still be restored.

I walked through darkness to find this understanding.
If my journey can offer even a small guiding light to another parent or individual, then none of it was in vain.

Welcome to Noor Guidance Sanctuary.
A place for growth, for awareness, for healing, and for hope.